I lost my mom on March 15, 2017.
When people ask me how I am, I don't know how to answer. I am here. I put one foot in front of the other. I make myself eat something mainly because I want my daddy to eat something or he reminds me to eat too.
I'm exhausted from too many sleepless nights. But now I am sleeping. A lot. It's just way too much to process in such a short span of time.
Having said all that i'm better than I ought to be. I've felt carried by something Divine. And there were some moments the other morning when I felt an overflowing hope that my life is about to get wonderful with this new angel on my side.
Processing Emotion Through Music
As my mother was in the hospital, I processed a lot of my emotions through music. I just sit down at the piano and play whatever comes. This extemporaneous piece I recorded on one of those afternoons when I knew she was fading. She was on my heart, mind and prayers as this music came out.
I was able to create this video and share it with her while she was in the hospital. She loved the music and it seemed to give her comfort. I'm grateful she had a chance to hear it and see the pictures of her beautiful life.
