If I look back on who I was 6-7 years ago before I started on a serious path of self-discovery and growth, I was emotionally numb.
I was a leader. I was incredibly successful in my career. In many ways I felt fearless. I was earning a good living. I felt good about who I was, I knew how to be vulnerable in my writing and voice, and had a strong connection to God.
But I was not happy in my marriage. There was no connection there. No passion. No vitality. I had a community of women and colleagues that I leaned on. But in my day to day life “loneliness” is probably the best descriptor for how I felt. I felt like an ox pulling a wagon and dragging a dead ox alongside me. While I made good money it was mismanaged because I had no clear boundaries or communication with my husband on how it was spent.
I, in essence, gave up everything I had going for me in search of the one thing I lacked — a loving, connected relationship with a man I highly respected and would pull his weight alongside me. That is why I married my second husband and why I was so grateful every moment I had him in my life.
Tapping into my femininity has been a huge part of my journey and still is.
Tapping into my emotions has been a big part of it. Energy work helped me learn to identify emotions, discover what they’re telling me and release trapped emotions.
For the last couple months I’ve been in Jennifer Lamprey‘s The Quickening membership. Going through my recent challenges while having this group for support has shifted something important for me.
It now feels safe to express a full range of emotions. I’m not scared of feeling and expressing my emotions anymore. I don’t feel like I have to stay positive all the time or my world will fall apart.
More than ever I’m leading from my feminine qualities and am aligned with my divine purpose. As a result, things are flowing more easily for me and with more abundance.
I’m getting clearer on the values l want to live in. When I’m clear on the values I want to experience, they show up in unexpected ways. Now I have eyes to see and be grateful for them. I see that nothing is lost or denied me when I am clear and acknowledge divine compensation in everything.
Are you ready to release the past and move forward unencumbered?
