The Blessings of Pain
Had I not gone through such a heart wrenching, mysterious rejection alongside my mother’s death would I have ever known how much I am supported and loved by so many? Would I have ever known that people I’ve never even met in person would actually fast and pray for me? Would I have ever had […]
Best Friends Forever
My mother’s best friend Katie passed away a couple years before Mama. Katie could be described with one word — feisty. You always knew Katie’s mind and she was a staunch defender of her own. If you were one of her people she went to bat for you. Of course, Mama and all of her […]
The Grief Technique by Dr. John Demartini
If you’re grieving, this is really fascinating. I tried an exercise based on what Dr. John Demartini suggested and I feel amazingly better and have a fresh perspective. He claims no one should ever have to grieve more than 3 hours. I’ll see how this works. Of course, I’m not working with him personally, so I […]
When You Really Just Want Revenge
Once I got through the initial shock I got mad. I wanted God to send vengeance. I wanted revenge — retribution. It seemed like each morning I woke up with some new form of vengeance God could inflict on my soon-to-be-ex. I wanted him to pay. I knew I shouldn’t pray for that and I […]
Priorities And The Only Two Things That Last
I’ve lost a lot over the last 5 years — a thriving business, two homes, a gorgeous piece of property I dreamed over and planned over, a couple husbands, and my sweet mother. I’ve endured 2 big heartbreaks. This is the 3rd time I’ve had to start over in a 5 year period. My priorities […]
I’m Good
Just wanted to let you know I’m good. Yes, I’m documenting and processing and there are moments the emotions bubble up and I process them in writing. Yet, I’m so blessed with an awesome support system — my wonderful Daddy and family members, a sweet brother-in-law Chris Kline who constantly checks on us, my sister Karen […]
Healing Through Writing
Writing is very cathartic for me as you can tell from my posts. It probably seems weird that I’m posting so much of my personal path through pain, but people are telling me they are benefiting from my raw vulnerability. And if this mess I’m going through can help someone process their own pain, then […]
My Double Broken Heart
I have a double broken heart right now. One from my mother’s passing and the other from my husband suddenly withdrawing his love. The juxtaposition of my mother’s love with the withdrawal of love has been poignant, and I do not believe the timing is coincidental. While the timing feels cruel, I believe it is also a […]
Losing My Mom: How Are You?
I lost my mom on March 15, 2017.When people ask me how I am, I don’t know how to answer. I am here. I put one foot in front of the other. I make myself eat something mainly because I want my daddy to eat something or he reminds me to eat too.I’m exhausted from […]
My Broken Heart
When I was young I had big plans For what I long to have. I dreamed of love and starry nights And long walks on the sand. I thought life would be rosy With much to look forward to. But I kneel here now before You, Lord, With just one thing in hand. Here’s my […]
The Juxtaposition of Love and Loss
I reflect on the times in my life when I’ve fallen in love… that temporary flame that roars to life in a heartbeat but then fizzles as fast as it came. Then, there are the times I’ve given my heart and soul only to have the other person’s heart harden and cut me off for […]
Eulogy for My Mom, Betty J. Morton
Eulogy for Betty Jean Morton By Marnie L. MarcusDelivered 3/21/2017 Audio version: Eulogy for Betty Morton My mother, Betty Jean Morton was born Betty Jean White on February 10, 1933 in Chattanooga, TN. She was the first child of five born to Thelma Brown White and Eugene R. White. They lived in Athens, Tennessee at the […]
Starting Over Again: Hoping The 3rd Time is the Charm
In my life I’ve truly loved three men. My experience with all three ended in disappointment, but what I carried away from those situations is priceless. With the first, I gained 6 beautiful children. I came to fully grasp the power of choice and consequences, and through necessity became a confident business woman and bestselling author. […]
