There have been seasons in my life when everything seemed like a mess and that there was no way out of that mess. It’s very easy to get where you never expect anything good to happen ever again. That is how I felt until an angel changed everything for me. I’ve been thinking about how […]
It’s been over two years since my mother died and my siblings and our husbands are finally going through her stuff. We had a big day of it Saturday. We had fun traveling down memory lane and finding treasures like handmade quilts and old photos … one old photo of our great aunt as a […]
Since my mother passed, I often feel her near me and there is one message that tends to come through over and over … “Enjoy your life… you are so blessed. Let go of your fears and your worries. I worried so much over things that were never going to happen. Don’t waste your life […]
A wise friend recommended that I create a musical portrayal of my life story – my life opus. I started it a couple weeks ago and I’m sure I’ll be blogging more of my experiences with this type of music therapy. This entry has to do with something I processed about my mother. “Look at […]
A poem I wrote in memory of my mother. Spring flowers always remind me of her. Sun ray’s stream Through leaves of green. Roses burst pink and red. Hydrangeas pop in a flower bed. Pastel impatiens reach toward sunlight, Shaded by dogwood blossoms bright. Azalea blooms burgeoning too, All of spring reminds me of you. […]
It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas. Christmas melodies fill the air. But one thing, dear Mother, is most clear: It’s the fact that you’re not here. Throughout the year the business of living Occupies my time. And I treasure the scattered moments when I feel you near my side. Yet, Christmastime is different: […]
As I drive on gorgeous spring mornings like this one, enjoying the vibrant light, blue skies, and colorful blossoms bursting from trees and earth, my heart remembers last spring. In fact, for moments at a time I am there at the time of my greatest heartbreak. It was March 11 when my 2nd marriage ended […]
A few weeks before our wedding, Dave showed up at my apartment door singing a revised version of Madonna’s “Material Girl.” He sang “Convertible Girl” instead. He stood there, with his phone in video mode and a set of keys dangling from his other hand. Confused, I looked at the keys and then around him, […]
It’s hard to believe this year is coming to a close. I think for the rest of my life I will be marking time as either before or after my mother’s passing. This has been one of the hardest and most wonderful years of my life. I am so grateful for the family and friends […]
Here’s something I’ve learned about losing someone you love since my mother died. Your loved-one shows up in the most unexpected moments, in a myriad of small ways and some big ones. I hear my mother’s unique signature phrases on the lips of friends or complete strangers. I’ve seen her smiling face flash into my […]